My abnormal liver enzyme count is driving me absolutely insane. Why, oh why is my liver acting retarded? I have now been referred to a GI specialist. I am truly sick to my stomach about going to see this new doctor. And the worst part is that my appointment is on Porgie's birthday. I am going to miss part of Porgie's special day.
I am hopeful that all of this hoopla will turn out to be nothing. I am hopeful that the diagnosis will be something trivial. However, I am terrified that something might be seriously wrong. How would a serious problem be managed during pregnancy? What affect will the problem have on the baby's development? Am I going to die?
Take a deep breathe Christy. You don't have a serious problem. (I repeat this to myself roughly 79 times per day)
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Although I hate to admit it, I have also started to worry excessively about this pregnancy. Since that horrible scare at my 12 week visit, I have not been able to relax. I have to tell myself over and over again that the doctor found the heartbeat. The doctor found the heartbeat. The doctor found the heartbeat. The doctor found...
I just can't seem to relax, to believe that everything is fine. Although I wasn't going to, I think I am going to ask John to go to my next appointment with me. His presence always makes me feel better. He is the voice of reason, while I am the voice of insanity.
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Don't you love to listen to all my neurotic whining? Stop reading my boring ass blog and go enjoy your weekend.
8 comments:
You make me laugh! But really I hope you figure out what is going on with your liver and relax just a little! You enjoy your weekend too!
I'm so sorry you are stressed, and that on Porgie's FIRST BIRTHDAY OH MY GOD SHE IS SO BIG you will have to deal with this issue. I really believe it's nothing serious and all will be well. Your doctors just want to be on the safe side but like I said plenty of people (including me) have abnormal liver function panels all the time and are perfectly fine, and their babies are fine. I'm glad your husband can go.
I personally found it hard not to fret during pregnancy, and I know that's true for many people, and nothing I can say can help, but things look good for you. You're in the second trimester! You're going to have a baby!
Try not to worry too much. Don't waste precious energy on it. Easier said than done, I know, but seriously - try to remain positive!
By all means, take your husband with. And how crappy that your appt is on Porgie's birthday. STUPID DOCTOR.
I'm sorry you're so stressed. STUPID LIVER.
It makes me feel better to type in caps. Maybe that would help you too?
I'm probably one of the most neurotic and anxious person I know, so I should probably take the advice that I'm going to give you. Try not to think about it. There's nothing you can do about it and worrying will only make it worse and give you unneeded stress. Take John with you to your next appointment-you need him there. Don't let the doctor's appointment ruin Porgie's day!
There's nothing neurotic about it been worried, i'd think you were mad if your wernt! I think its difficult to enjoy your pg with it all hanging over you. Hopefully you'll know once and for all soon!
just keep breathing, friend.
my pregnancy with O, i spent the whole time in a state of half-panic, so i sympathize. i knew i couldn't control what was happening with the baby (which was all normal) and with my body (which was a little un-normal, but alleviated by bedrest), but my mind really wanted that control. more than anything i wanted an assurance of normalcy that i just couldn't get, an assurance that everything would be okay. which nobody gets, really...people just think they do. eventually i just got better at telling myself "i'm doing the best i can, and being as calm as i can be today." :)
i hope that you don't need that mantra, but in case you find it helpful...it's not copyrighted.
we will wait for news, and send you healthy vibes.
Take a deep breath. There, now, blow it all out....
lather, rinse, repeat.
Easy for me to say, but try not to stress about it too much.
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