Thursday, July 10, 2008

I say it is about the kids, but it is really about me

Do you ever go back and read your archives? It is pretty interesting stuff. I never kept a diary or journal while growing up, so I am fascinated with the ability to go back to read about my life last year.

Although many mommies start their blogs to record their children's milestones, I started my blog primarily because I was bored. Living 10 hours away from my nearest family member or friend was quite lonesome. Fortunately, you guys came to the rescue. SERIOUSLY. What would I do without you, dear internet friends?

So although I know I am a "mommy blogger," my blog was not created solely to document my children's lives. This is a place for me to share my personality, my interests, and my life. And because I am feeling talkative today, I have decided to share some more information about my past with you. I am alway hesitant to share information from my childhood, for fear that others will judge me. But since I trust must of you, I will share a few tidbits. Here goes...

1. My mother had me when she was 17. She dropped out of high school and started waitressing. To this today, she still works as a waitress.

2. I have never met my father. He lived about 10 minutes away, yet he never made an effort to contact me. Nor I him.

3. I was a very chubby child. I was often teased in school and at home. Although I like to pretend that it didn't affect my self esteem, it really did. I cannot look in the mirror without uttering some self-deprecating remark.

Ahhh...that felt good. Perhaps I'll share more on another day.

28 comments:

Amanda said...

Thanks for sharing Christy. I was teased at school too for being bigger than the rest of the kids. It's horrible.
I too have met lots of great and interesting people through blogging . Including YOU !!
love,
Amanda x

Heather at A Boy, A Girl, & A Pug said...

Thanks so much for sharing. I love knowing more about you.

You MUST share more:)

Z's Mom said...

Ditto the other comments...I love knowing more about you too! No judgement here.....internet friends shouldn't judge.

I often wonder when Z gets older how he will deal with the fact his dad is not in his life. That is such an "iffy" area. Do you still struggle with your feelings about that?

The Woman said...

I was teased too for being chubby and having freckles and those things I hate to this day but they are part of me. I have met lots of people through blogging I am proud and happy to consider friends.

Mama Kalila said...

Yeah thanks for sharing. It can be hard to do that (I know)

TEACHBROECK said...

Thanks for the tidbits...my nephew is 18 months...we love him to death..his father lives 5 minuties away and has nothing to do with him...any insight you could share with me?

THopgood said...

Most won't judge you because we ALL have our own demons.

It's nice to "meet" you!

amanda said...

it's like circle time..now i feel like sharing.

but i won't it's your blog :)

anyways, thanks for sharing. i think i like you even more now. and sharing is good.

Jenn said...

Thanks for sharing! I too started because I'm stuck here alone far far away from anyone I know. I love learning about different people and their lives and I find in a way even though it's only on here you kinda make friends . I look forward to getting on here every morning and seeing what's new with everyone! Oh Boy ..now don't I sound like a great big dork! haha

Marni's Organized Mess said...

Well, if it makes you feel any better, my mom got prego with me at 14. She's now on welfare with all kinds of issues.

My dad's an ass and we've never really been close. I probably would have been better off with him not being in my life at all.

I've always been chubby too. We're a lot alike...

Awake said...

Bet that felt good!

By the way of shared experience, my parents were teens too. :)

Lindz said...

I always feel that way when I look back at my archives - it's amazing how much we expose sometimes and also nice to go back and remember little things.

dani said...

christy, there's nothing to judge:) so, you must stop judging yourself!!! say something nice when you pass your mirror... your deserve it!!!
l,
d

Dana said...

thanks for sharing Christy.... I loved hearing more about you! And anyone who judges isn't a friend!! Thanks for putting yourself out there, I know it can be tough!

Bon said...

the real stuff, the stuff that's more than just documenting the kids...that's the really interesting stuff, Christy.

now...if you feel like it...it would be cool to know how 1, 2, and 3 have impacted you and made you feel, looking back. :)

ie...don't stop.

Rachel said...

I loved reading this stuff about you. You are not alone with the dad stuff. I know my Dad but he makes not attempt. I never will get that especially after having my own kids.

Also I love your blog and I am so happy I know you.

Mary said...

I blog for me too-even if no one's reading it it makes me feel better to write it.

Thanks for sharing!

Misguided Mommy said...

i used to be skinny now i'm fat...i like your way better

chris said...

It feels good to let that stuff out every once in awhile!

Danielle said...

Thanks for sharing. There are mnay things I wish I could share but too many people I now read my blog...and some of the stuff is waaay to personal!

Amber said...

It is always nice to read about different aspects of everyone's life! And although I wasn't neccesarily chubby in school I was always one of the bigger girls and got teased a lot from my brother about it and it still affects me to this day so I understand :)

Nellie said...

I really liked that post, thanks for sharing. I love learning more about all my blogger buddies!

rmgales said...

This post shows that you have heart and you're real. Thanks for sharing.

Laura McIntyre said...

Sharing really is good for you, i think a good mommy blog is as much about the mother as the child. Sure i want to hear about the rugrats buts it the mother i emphasis for and can really relate to .

moo said...

I was also teased growing up; in fact I just wrote a little bit about it! How odd that the universe works like that.

And you don't have to have an absentee dad in order to have an ABSENTEE dad ... he could live in the same house as you and still be absent. Believe me, I know.

ann said...

Oh, it's definitely always about Mom - make sure the kids know it.

Kate said...

I love that you did this. I tend to write more about myself than my kids (in fact my mother in law recently told someone that I don't really write that much about the kids - obviously she hasn't seen my posts on Oliver's butt in Star Wars underwear...). I think it does kind of feel good to say something either private or negative about yourself online. I thought of that when I found myself typing a sentence about once punching my best friend in the nose and then getting a bloody nose myself because I was so upset. Not a major relelation for most people reading it - but it's a not so pleasant memory (and commentary on my character at the time) that I still think about and cringe.

I also had my moments of feeling like a loser growing up. They aren't happy memories - but I like to think that they made me a much better and kinder person now.

This was a wonderful post.

anymommy said...

I came from AM (no stalking). Great post. So true. Even when I write about my kids, it's often focused on how I'm feeling about them or how they impacted me. Hmmmm, maybe my blog is a little too 'me' focused. Well, yours is lovely.