People are always changing. We are constantly in motion, moving from one phase of our lives to the next. My life has changed dramatically in the past few years. I can honestly say, without a doubt, having kids has been the best phase of my life. However, I can't help but feel like I have lost something along the way.
I no longer feel feminine, girly, or pretty. I don't know how to phrase this exactly, but I no longer feel like I am attractive (to anyone - even my husband). And the most disturbing part is that I don't really even care. I never wear makeup anymore. I rarely buy new clothes. And I am a little pudgier than I need to be.
Although I have been fairly at peace with my lackluster appearance, something has been bothering me lately - my hair. When I look in the mirror, I see my mother's unruly and disheveled mane. It is everything - the color, the cut, the texture. And it disturbs me on so many levels.
This realization has awoken something inside of me. Why have I let myself go? If I don't like what I see in the mirror, then I need to change it. First up is my hair - I need to have it cut and dyed (For the past several months, I have been skipping the dye to save money). Next, I am going to work on shedding a few pounds. Although I personally don't really have a problem with my weight right now, I know that I could stand to shed a few pounds. And it is almost summer, so bathing suit season is just around the corner. Finally, I am going to start wearing a little makeup everyday. Hopefully it will make me feel a little more put together and maybe, just maybe, a little more feminine and girly and pretty. And I think that is exactly what I need right now.
7 comments:
I am totally guilty of this...I never wear makeup...just never been a fan. I do try and do mascara and lip gloss but that is usually it.
I do think we lose a bit of ourselves when we have kids but we can always get it back! Let's do it!
I am totally guilty of this...I never wear makeup...just never been a fan. I do try and do mascara and lip gloss but that is usually it.
I do think we lose a bit of ourselves when we have kids but we can always get it back! Let's do it!
it is amazing what a little hair and make-up will do! i left the kids with chris last week to get mine cut, and i am getting it high lighted in a few weeks, i need it so bad!!
I know what you mean. I have paint in my hair and don't even care.
You probably won't be surprised to know that I am definitely an advocate of a little makeup now and again. I loved being in Costa Rica because I wore ZERO makeup the entire time and it was soo lovely to take a break from it. That being said, I am so grateful that I have to get up and go to work in a professional environment every day because if I didn't I would sit at home in my yoga pants with a bowl of macaroni and cheese and a gnarled matte of hair on my head.
I was reading a fashion blog yesterday that was talking about how putting on a cute outfit can really change your whole mood and how you feel about yourself- I have been pondering it and I think I sort-of agree! Go get that haircut girlfriend!
today i wore this tank top and i got a compliment from each person i saw. like to the point i wondered, "do i look like crap everytime else you people see me".
it's hard friend. i get it.
and i too am totally calling for a haircut tomorrow.
I could have written this exact post. I'm going to start working on the same things.
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