I have been doing a lot of thinking about the future of our family. Are we done having kids? I always thought I wanted 4 kids, but now I am thinking that maybe 2 is a more realistic number. If we have more babies, where will they sleep? We literally do not have any room left in our house. Do I have the patience for more babies? Some days I feel like I can barely take care of my two rambunctious kiddos.
I keep telling myself that I still have time to sort everything out. But I worry about the age difference between my children. Porgie and Izzy are 17 months apart, and they are the best of friends. If we had another baby soon (which isn't likely), Izzy would be three years older and Porgie would be 4 years older. That gap doesn't sound too bad. But if we waited another couple years (which, if we were to have more children, would be much more likely) there will be a 5 or 6 year gap between the kids. That makes me sad.
I am the oldest of three children. I am 6 years older than brother #1 and 12 years older than brother #2. We aren't very close. In fact, I haven't talked to either of my brothers since Christmas of 08'. I know that having your children close together does not necessarily mean that they will be friends, but from my experience, I definitely think it improves the odds.
Money is also an issue. I have been complaining a lot about money lately, because we are trying to live debt free (which is really hard when you are trying to pay off credit card debt). Although times are tight right now, our financial situation will be much better in a few months. But still, kids are expensive.
And last, but certainly not least, there are differences in important parenting decisions between John and myself. My husband is very anti-vaccination. Every time I take the kids to the doctor, we end up fighting for days over vaccines. Do I really want to go through that all over again? I think not.
All of this leads me back to thinking that maybe we shouldn't have any more children. Yet at the same time, I know that we could make it work if we really wanted to.