Monday, January 18, 2010

Same old, same old

I feel like I need to do something with myself. I am fat. Blah. I get in phases where I let myself turn into a cow. I want to eat right and exercise in theory, but in reality it seems like entirely too much work. Honestly, I feel like I eat a fairly healthy diet. We eat lots of beans. We love brown rice. We use whole grain pastas. But I definitely have a problem with portions. I like to feel FULL when I finish eating. Additionally, I love baked goods (actually, I love anything sweet). I usually make a dessert of some sort every week. Lately it has been cupcakes, but I also love baking cookies and brownies. I tell myself that it is okay, because they are made from scratch, with no high fructose corn syrup. But I know that I shouldn't be eating all that sugar.

To make myself feel even worse, I decided to check my BMI. I am in the overweight category. BOO! But at least I am not obese - right? Yay for only being kind of fat!

Now comes the hard part. How am I going to alter my lifestyle to lose weight?

I feel like I have written this post 100 times before. This cycle of losing and gaining weight has been a part of my life since my early teenage years. And sadly, I think it will always be a part of my life.

8 comments:

Rachel said...

Oh sweetie-dont kick yourself over and over..when the time is right-you will change that and dont check your BMI anymore-jusrt will wanna make you kick yourself over and over

Jenny said...

I am with Rachel...don't beat yourself up. Just stay positive. Once spring comes, you can get the kids out more and play around. You can do it!!!

Jeninacide said...

I think it's kind of natural for everyone to go through phases where we are more active than others. It just happens naturally depending on how our routines are going. At least that is true for me. I try to stay active every day by waking up early before Cole gets up and doing a pilates or yoga video. He also LOVES going to the kids club at the gym... not sure if that is an option for you or not, but when he is begging to go "play with the kids" it is hard for me to pass up a workout. Damn child, motivating me and shit.

Clare said...

good luck!! i feel like i am always up and down with my weight, i just try to get to the gym and walk when i can!! it is tough though!

Antropóloga said...

I don't know. I don't really want you to stop your cupcake posts, though, since I like the pictures. Maybe...uh...

I have no advice.

Mama Kalila said...

I'm sorry... I second (third, forth, whatever) the not kicking yourself bit though. Good luck!

amanda said...

i made brownies tonight. and i already had one after dinner and i was just thinking i need my hubs to go and get me another one.

i have the same problem. i am no help.

Catizhere said...

Yep, I'm getting fat too. I'm 15 lbs over MY ideal weight. I'm the heaviest I've ever been while NOT gestating.
I know that all I have to do is MOVE a little bit. It's too darn cold to walk after work. I can't get up earlier to exercise (I get up at 5:30 in the MORNING!!) I bent over to wrap my hair after the shower, and I saw my fat dimply knees & thighs.
I had oatmeal for breakfat, & I packed a salad for lunch. I don't know what I'll do about dinner.