Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Glutton for Punishment

Do you ever find yourself craving chaos? Because I think I am addicted to a hectic lifestyle. Porgie was a high needs baby, who required lots of attention. Shortly after she emerged from this stage, I got pregnant with Izzy. After Izzy was born, I experienced the joy of having two children under the age of two. Throughout everything, I have been happy. Actually, these last few years have been the happiest years of my life.

Lately, things have been very calm around here. The kids are perfect. John and I have been getting along great. I am talking to my mother on a regular basis. But despite this time of tranquility and peace, I often feel a little discombobulated. Honestly, I think I miss my crazy life. My mind is constantly racing with thoughts of remodeling or moving or having another baby or starting a business. Why can't I just relax?

I think, in some weird way, I feel like the chaos makes me a more interesting person. I have nothing to talk about - on this blog or in real life. Everyday we do the same routine and everyday things go pretty smoothly. This makes for VERY boring topics of conversation. I recently started emailing a friend from high school, and I was shocked at how little I had to say. She literally wrote a short novel on her current life. I responded with a three sentence paragraph about my life. What the fuck? Am I THAT boring.

I don't want to be misunderstood - I LOVE my life. I am happy. Maybe I need a new hobby?

13 comments:

Marni's Organized Mess said...

I totally feel like this sometimes. My life is really not all that exciting either. I think some people are just better at 'telling' theirs...

MarvelousMOM said...

You aren't boring at all. I think that we all feel that way at some point. I know I do when I get wrapped up in our routine and things are going so well. I feel like my friends who don't have kids have so much other stuff going on but they are able to travel - just pack up and leave spur of the moment. Having kids definitely changes all of that.

Jiff said...

I feel like I'm boring compared to old friends from high school, too. They have much more interesting lives and I just work, go home and do my nightly routine with Bayley, then go to bed. Lather, rinse, repeat.

I think once you've had chaos for so long, you become used to it and it's not chaos anymore.

But hey, at least you guys make pretty babies...so if you have another you know he/she will be gorgeous! :)

Kate Coveny Hood said...

Boring can be good when it comes to your home life. But it sounds like you just need a little diversion from the day to day routines.

I think you should just pick something you love and write about it, photograph it, do it (all depends on what it is). Just something to have a creative outlet. Hobby or job - everyone needs something that's just for them.

Amanda said...

Uneventful can be great, but i understand about the same old routine ~ it's easy to get stuck in a rut. I Know!
Your blog posts are not boring ~ I look forward to reading about what you have all been up to!
Love,
Amanda x

anymommy said...

Nope, you're not boring. But, I know what you mean, sometimes after a long period of intenseness and drama (even the good kind), normal routine feels dull. Enjoy it a while, I'm always throwing something new into the pot when I shouldn't!

Eva said...

I vote new baby! I could use the company.

dani said...

you are totally yearning for another little cakerwaker, christy!!!
however, if you hold out for porgie to turn 3... life will get chaotic on its very own again!!!
love,
dani

Danielle said...

My life is boring. Well...except for the pregnancy. I think what you are feeling is pretty common.

amanda said...

if you find a hobby could you let me know - i swear i have been looking for one since i gave up collecting stickers in the 5th grade.

iMommy said...

Oh, you aren't boring! It just feels like that, sometimes.

I often feel like there is nothing, just NOTHING to write about or talk about... but then I realize that the things that are boring and every-day to me might not be for the person I'm talking to. So, I try talking about the stuff I think is boring. Sometimes, I'm surprised to find that someone else thinks it's interesting!

Melain said...

It's not what we do that makes us interesting, it's what we think. It's how we react to what comes along. That's one of your charms.

But yes, take up a new hobby! I just signed on to participate in my first ever triathalon! That should be a nice adventure.

TEACHBROECK said...

We could trade!!!!!