Thursday, January 8, 2009

Control Issues

I want to talk about my weight goals today. Fortunately, I managed to lose those last 10 pounds before our trip to KY. When we left in mid December, I weighed 168 pounds - my thinnest weight in three years. And it was fabulous. Everyone commented on how great I looked, and for the first time in a very long time, I felt WONDERFUL about my appearance. So wonderful, that I let myself indulge in a few sweet treats.

Okay, that is an understatement. In reality, I went off the deep end with junk food. I ate cookies and chocolate and cheese cake. I ate pancakes and french toast and waffles (smothered in syrup - of course). I ate fast food and pizza and all-you-can-eat buffets. Basically, I stuffed myself silly for our entire trip. And it felt WONDERFUL.

I told myself that I would get back on my diet when we got home. But that never happened. In fact, I think I have been worse at home than I was on our trip. I just made a batch of brownies yesterday afternoon. And I bought some Pepperidge Farm cookies at the store. Honestly, I feel a little out of control. I just keep popping crap into my mouth - the more sugar, the better.

I need to get my cravings under control. I need to get my hunger under control. I need to get MYSELF under control.

21 comments:

Midwest Mommy said...

Now that I have finished pumping I totally can tell I am not burning those calories. I have gained 5 pounds in the week since I stopped. At this rate I am in trouble. Being home all day really doesn't help either. I need a lock on the pantry.

Melissa said...

Inhale. Exhale. Stop and think: do you feel good right now? How did you feel before you fell off the wagon and let it run over you? Concentrateon that good feeling and that should be a start. Oh, and trash those brownies...

Jenn said...

Well since I have weighed more in the last two years then I ever did in my life in at nine months pregnant with my kids, I can't really help. I know once this baby comes I hope I can finally lose this weight so my old clothes will fit since I had bought tons of new ones never got to wear them and started getting fat.

On the other hand I think everyone yaps they want to diet and be skinny, why not say I want to eat whatever I want I could get hit by a bus tomorrow and I might as well die happy and not starving and grouchy !

See told you I'm no help ! haha

Misguided Mommy said...

when you figure it out let me know so i can do it too. i made brownies too last night

dani said...

i am the heaviest that i have been since i had katherine in 1992!!! it makes me so mad at myself. i put myself on weight watchers on monday... so far so good. ha, 3 days!!! but, it is a start:/
i really hope to lose about 40 lbs by summer...
good luck, christy, i know what it is like to glut on sweets; i have off-and-on for the last 2 years. sweets are really hard for me to kick, too.
much love,
dani

Lindz said...

I feel you! It's so hard. I used to have indulgence issues when I worked in a cubicle based mostly on the fact that I got bored. I went far off of the deep end during the holidays as well.... lots of booze and eating crap. So, now not only do I need to get my ass to the gym (or something) I also need to NOT eat crap. I went to the store last night and stocked up on my favorite flavored water, it fills you up and hydrates you throughout the day. Give it a try!

Jiff said...

ME TOO. I lost 10 lbs and although wasn't too noticeable, I felt better... and then the holidays came and I went wild! I am trying to reel myself in but I just want to sleep...probably from all the junk I've been eating. :(

All these B's and Me! said...

I lose weight, feel great and treat myself to not one thing but to several. I love food and it hates me and the scale just laughs in my face when I try to diet. I give in too easily. This time I have put all the bad foods in one cabinet and put a lock on it that only my husband has the key for. it's bad I have to lock myself out of the food cabinet but if it works - hell, I'll try it.

You can do this!! Pull out a fat pic and a skinny pic and post both on the fridge and on your bathroom mirror as a constant reminder to what you don't want and what you do! Good luck - you can do this!

Tabitha said...

You can do it Christy ~ I started in April/May last year and I am almost there now (having lost 72 pounds)there have been moments where I have fallen off the wagon big style ~ and eaten something totally bad ~ but you just have to put it behind you and carry on!!

What I want to know ~ is why all the tasty yummy things make you fat (like choccies)and the things that tastes not so good (like salad) are good for you ~ there is something wrong there!!! ha ha !
Love and big hugs Tabitha XXX

Mama Kalila said...

Good job on getting there in the first place. That in itself is hard to do. But because of that, I know you can do it again.

My husband is determined to lose weight this year... I've got to gain a few... both work out to the same idea of getting in shape and being healthier lol. May not be easy but we're determined..

Good luck it all!

amanda said...

raising my hand over in the corner.

totally get it friend.

u can do it - remember u r awesome!!

Nancy said...

I hear you there! I'm out of control too. I started a "movement" (LOL) of "Taking Back My Closet!"

I was feeling so good about myself last year and in the past few months I've ballooned to my largest (non pregnant) weight ever.

There are other ladies joining me and you're welcome to join us too. The info is on my blog if you're interested.

Nancy said...

I forgot to say that I started a forum for it (for privacy sake). It's at www.onestopboyshop.com/talk if you're interested.

Amanda said...

I tried to comment a little while back, and just when i was about to write my comment the little one fell over! My computer was on your blog page like for 3 hours! LOL!!
So ~ as a yo-yo dieter i can totally understand what you are going through. It can sometimes be so hard to get back into a healthier routine one you fall of the wagon. But you can do it!

Rachel said...

I feel the same. The post prego body acceptance is hard for me and I LOVE to eat when I feel stressed and with 2, well I feel a little stressed/Not the best way to deal with anxiety but that is what I do-eat. I hope you can get back on track. I hope I can too. Love you Christy

Z's Mom said...

I'm right there with ya......

Marni's Organized Mess said...

I just got a blog ready to post tomorrow morning that might appeal to you. I deal with these problems often. Give yourself 3 days, NO SUGAR. I promise if you can get through 3 days, you WILL overcome it. :)

Eva said...

Oh, you'll get back on track. This stuff comes and goes.

:)

Papa Bradstein said...

What Eva said. Discipline requires...well, discipline, which is why it's such a pain in the ass. And why it's good to let it go sometimes.

Carrie said...

ok girl, take a deep breath and step back from the brownies. Why don't you mail me the brownies and I'll take care of them for you. ;-)(I'm craving chocolate like there is no tomorrow)

It sounds like you need to join a diet program. It is soo much easier to stick to a program if you have to justify what you are eating. Weight Watchers is good, but too many people for my taste. I really loved the Quick Weight Loss Center, which is a glycemic index plan. It teaches you how to cook healthier and is easy to keep up with after you reach your weight goal.
The key to a good weight loss plan is keeping a food diary and meeting with a counselor 1 a week and going over what you can do to improve....

You can do it! After Bean pops out, I'll be right on the wagon with you.

MarvelousMOM said...

The more sweets you eat, the more you crave them. It is a viscious cycle! You can do it though. It will all work out.