Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Something I've been fretting over

If you've followed my blog from the beginning, you know that John and I make big babies. Porgie was 8 lb 4oz at 40 weeks. Izzy was 9lb 6oz at 39 weeks. With both pregnancies, I had pregnancy induced hypertension, but thankfully it never developed into anything more serious. Because of my high blood pressure, I had extra growth scans. According to my doctor, my babies were at a higher risk for growth restriction. Obviously my ginormous children never suffered any ill effects from my wacky blood pressure.

Before getting pregnant with this baby, I lost about 40 pounds. I started out at a fantastic weight. My blood pressure has been perfect the entire pregnancy. But oddly enough, my doctor seemed to think that my baby might be small. At my 24 week visit, my belly was measuring a week behind. At my 28 week visit, my belly was measuring a full 3 weeks behind. So, they scheduled me for another growth scan.

At first, I didn't really think much of it. I mentioned it to a few good friends, but I tried not to make the information into a big deal. But everyone I encountered seemed to mention that my stomach was "SO TINY!!!" I guess people thought I'd appreciate their comments on my small size, but instead they just made me nervous. Honestly, I haven't felt "tiny" in a long time. At this point, I feel large and cumbersome (like all third trimester mommies). Also, the baby gives me nice big kicks, which also don't feel like they are being made by a tiny creature. But regardless, all of these outside comments on the size of my belly slowly crept into my neurotic brain. I often found myself lying awake at night thinking about it.

My growth scan was this afternoon, and honestly, I was more than a little scared. But all that worrying was for NOTHING, because my baby is in the 54th percentile for growth. Totally and completely normal. Not too big, not too small, but just right. I am thinking that instead of having another large baby, I am going to have a nice average-sized bundle of joy. And I am completely fine with that.

Now maybe I can get a little sleep.

P.S. The ultrasound was painful. PAINFUL. Apparently the baby's head was at a weird angle, so the tech decided to apply a ton of pressure to her little wand. I am fairly certain that she fucked up some of my ligaments or something, because since leaving the office, every time the baby moves my lower abdomen hurts. And for all my pain and suffering, I received two completely vague and unrecognizable photos. Awesome.

9 comments:

Nancy said...

Glad that your ultrasound results were so good. That ultrasound sounded awful though.. she should've been gentler!

Hope you're sleeping well tonight.

Antropóloga said...

Can't get more normal than 50% percentile! Glad it was good news.

allyk said...

Yippee!! Glad to hear you can sleep again.

Catizhere said...

REAL NAME ALERT!!!!

amanda said...

it's crazy how crazy we get while we are pregnant. and i am all sorts of crazy not pregnant. so my crazy and pregnant is just really crazy!!

i so get it.

and am so glad all is well :)


ps - and how do i always miss the real name drops!! ugh!! do you fix them before i get here? or do i read them and not notice bc i know their real names?!?!?

Jenn said...

Try not to worry,I find people will say something no matter what big or small and it makes you worried or hurts your feelings. My last one was 8lbs 3.6 oz 2 weeks early....and the two before were 8lbs two weeks early ...so I'm already starting to wonder how much this baby will weigh when it comes. Isn't it great when it feels like they are going to shove that thing right straight through your belly when they are trying to get a shot and the baby isn't how they want...it's like they don't realize at all that it actually hurts you .

Krystyn said...

I know doctors mean well, but I sure hate it when they scare the crap out of us! It's not right. So glad the scan went well and the baby looks good.

kristi said...

I have had ultrasounds where they were rough...sorry about that! Glad the baby is okay though.

Clare said...

i am glad that all is well and the baby looked good on the ultrasound!!