2011 isn't panning out the way I had hoped

You are never going to believe this, but my mother was admitted to the hospital on Saturday. The same hospital where my grandmother is currently residing. What is up with my family?

Apparently my mother has been sick for the past week. On top of that, she kept having sharp pains in her left ribcage. When the pain became too much, she went to the ER. After an EKG and some blood work, she was admitted to the hospital. I called and talked to her, but it was hard to get any solid facts out of her. She keep downplaying the entire episode, acting like the doctors were crazy. I think she just didn't want me to worry. But, of course, I am worried. My mom has had a hard life. She has never taken care of herself, and it is definitely showing as she ages. The thing that worries me the most is that her father died at age 50 from a heart attack. When you point this out to her, my mother acts like you are being ridiculous. This fact terrifies me. I wish it had the same effect on my mother (because then maybe she would take better care of herself).

Now I am feeling doubly guilty about not being in Kentucky. But I can't go. I just can't. We have several doctor appointments coming up, I don't have the money to travel right now, and on top of that, I am fucking sick again. Can you believe that shit? I started feeling better on Friday. I felt pretty good on Saturday. Sunday morning I was back to my old self again. But by Sunday evening I was miserable. I currently have a nasty sore throat, and my head feels like it weighs about 400 pounds. I am so over winter.

So, I am worried about my mom, I am worried about my grandma, and I am tired of being sick.