I feel like I am going insane. Seriously, I have been so flipping moody lately. I hate feeling this way, and even more, I hate acting like a damn crazy person all the time. I flipped out on my husband last night over dinner. It was lovely.
I know EXACTLY where all my craziness is coming from - sleep deprivation. Guppy has been exceptionally wakeful lately. For the longest time, the kid refused to move. He was a lump who liked to watch all the other babies crawl. But suddenly he figured out how to get around. He has mastered the art of scooting across the floor on his butt. He can get into a sitting position when you lay him down. He can pull-up on the furniture. This all happened over the past two weeks, which is awesome and wonderful, but it is also super annoying because the child will not sleep. Instead, he likes to sit up all night long (he will not lay flat anymore - EVER). It is exhausting and I am so ready for all of these physical milestones to be old hat.
In other slightly related news, I am a fat cow who cannot stop eating. I am not sure if it is the sleep deprivation or just stress, but I have absolutely no motivation to eat healthy or take care of myself. All I want to do is eat sugar and sit on my ass. And that is exactly what I do all day long. A friend just invited us to the aquarium and I was all, "No thank you. I have too much sitting around to do. I think I'll get some ice cream and watch TV this afternoon. But thanks for asking! Maybe next time?" I want to care. I want to be my normal self. But I am just not there yet. So until I get over this hump, be expecting gratuitous talk about Ben & Jerry's.