Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Rambling

For the first time since I had Guppy, I weighed myself. To my amazement, I have lost 20 pounds. Too bad that I gained too much and still have 23 more pounds to lose. BOO! I originally was shooting for a 30 pound weight gain. But I just couldn't seem to control my weight gain at various times in my pregnancy. Some months I would gain 2 pounds and others I would gain 12 pounds. I felt like I had very little control over it. So, this week I am going to try to start eating healthy again. Actually, I already eat fairly healthy, I really just need to watch my portion size. And stop eating Ben & Jerry's.

Guppy is doing great, but he is killing me with sleep deprivation. I had high hopes for this baby. I was sure that he was going to be my good sleeping baby. He was so calm and peaceful in the hospital. But he has been so freaking wakeful at night. He sleeps great during the day, but nighttime is a nightmare! He does this weird grunting, straining, and crying routine every hour or so all night long. And he is constantly rooting around and trying to nurse all freaking night. I am about to kick him out of my bed. I want to be a co-sleeping mama, but I can't handle this up all night nursing shit. I think I'll give him another week to get more settled at night, and if he is still nursing all damn night, we are going to make some changes in our sleep routine. I wouldn't mind getting up every two or three hours, but I am barely able to function on our current schedule.

John returned to work today. I have mixed emotions about this. I am excited to get back to our normal routine. I have felt a little off lately, and being more independent might help me feel normal again. But damn, I am going to miss having someone home to cook all my meals and change all the shitty diapers.

7 comments:

Just Jiff said...

Ahh...sleep deprivation..the joys of a newborn. I shall be there in several months. :-/ That's the part I dread most because nothing makes you feel better than a solid amount of sleep.

I'm sending warm fuzzies your way, friend!
*HUGS*

Carrie said...

since you are not sleeping, how about some Guppy pictures? I'm craving baby pictures....

Jenny said...

hugs for you my friend...just reading this is making me anxious for the lack of sleep that is to come my way soon! hope he starts getting better at night for you...

MK said...

*hugs* I hope it eases up on you... and I'm seconding the call for pics too :-)

amanda said...

yay for the 20 lbs!! but i say who cares abou the next 23 - long live ben and jerrys!!

happy to hear guppy is doing so well! but boo on the sleep thing. gah is it sad how much i miss being a co-sleeping mama...memories :)

here's to a long nights sleep (maybe a good four hour run?)

Nicole S. said...

Are you swaddling him? For me, that was the only way I could get any of my 3 to sleep decent stretches at night. Hopefully, the sleep deprivation will be a distant memory soon enough! Hang in there!

Clare said...

oh good luck!! i am so scared to be sleep deprived again it is the absolute worst. there is nothing like it!!!!!!!!!!!! gripe water always worked wonders for ellie, you can get it at a natural foods store. a little squirt of it would calm her down at night. she also slept in her bouncy seat for a long time at night. something about being elevated, she would digest her milk and sleep longer...good luck!