Dusgusted.

I don't normally talk about politics on my blog, but I am greatly disturbed by McCain's selection for vice president. I would write a post on the subject, but I read a blog that summed up my opinions perfectly this morning. Go check it out.

Eating disorder

Porgie is such a big girl. She knows all of her colors and shapes. She knows some letters and numbers. She likes to pick out her own clothes. She eats water ice with a spoon. She bravely goes down the big slide at the park. Although she seems advanced for her age, I did not expect Porgie to become bulimic at the tender age of two.

My darling daughter has discovered the fine art of making herself vomit. She repeatedly gags herself while we are driving in the car. She seems to spontaneously vomit when she is upset. She will forcefully shove her fingers down her throat until she pukes if she doesn't like the food being offered at dinnertime.

Over the past two weeks, I have watched her vomit no less than 7 times. And every time I witness one of these events, I feel my blood boil. I get angry. Very angry. When she first started gagging herself, I would say, "NO!" in a stern voice, and she would stop. But that tactic stopped working after a few days. Then I started distracting her with promises of going outside. But that tactic stopped working after a few days too.

According to parents on various message boards, I should be ignoring her behavior. But that is the hardest advice in the world to follow. When I watch her gagging herself I know that a few things are going to happen - 1) I am going to have to clean vomit off of the floor. 2) I am going to have to clean vomit off of Porgie. 3) I will have to send my daughter to bed without eating dinner AGAIN. And have I mentioned that it makes my blood boil? It is very difficult to stay clam, when your BLOOD IS BOILING.

So, any advice? Is my child the only one with this annoying habit?

Blah,blah, blah and I want more babies

Let's talk some more about periods and birth control and pregnancy. I feel like I didn't fully explain myself yesterday. So, today I am going to delve a little deeper into the issues at hand - namely, all things related to fertility.

Did you know that I have only had two periods since August of 2005? That sound like crazy talk - right? But it is true. I found out I was pregnant with Porgie in September of 2005. She was born in June of 2006. I pumped for 6 months, and didn't start my period until I stopped pumping. I got my period in January and February and found out I was pregnant with Izzy in March of 2007. I've been period free since his birth in November of 2007. So, last week's pregnancy scare wasn't related to a late period or anything - I just took the test because I started getting paranoid.

Moving on to birth control. You would think that having two children under the age of two would have motivated my ass to get on birth control, but it didn't. I really didn't want to take anything while I was breastfeeding. So, John volunteered to start using condoms. He even went to the store and bought a pack. But unfortunately, he never actually uses them. So, we have reverted back to the withdrawal method. If you recall, this is the method we were using when Izzy was conceived. Not good for a family who really can't afford another baby right now.

I do actually want to have more babies some day. To be exact, I want to have four children. With that said, I do not plan on becoming pregnant anytime soon. Maybe in 4 or 5 years? Maybe even longer? I don't think John wants to have anymore children. It kind of pisses me off and makes me sad all at the same time. But I am a very persistent asshole, so I am sure if I really want to have another baby, I can make it happen.

Okay, let's review what we learned today - I am period free, I need more reliable birth control, and I want to have more babies someday. The end.